I wake up three am every single day and words surge through my head. Words always. My mind won’t rest until I figure it out. Thoughts keep twirling and twirling, trying to make sense. And then it hits me. When a realization finally hits me, it’s like a good kick to the chest, where you double over and lose all your breath. (It’s one heck of an experience btw.) And yes, I know what I’m talking about because I’ve gotten one in my life. Not because I was a feisty fighter, but because I have three brothers and our games were sometimes rough. Ha!
I’m sure everybody in life has had a moment like that. Well, some realizations are such a preposterous notion that it just makes you want to laugh. I couldn’t understand because I would have never, ever thought along those terms!
When God’s love is written all over it. The evidence is everywhere. How can one not see? Almost like special favor! If God says, you are made in my image, you are worthy, you are forgiven, you are my child, you are beautiful, no man or woman can go against it and say the opposite. If I tell my girls they are beautiful and God loves them every day of their life and someone comes along and starts to tell them that they aren’t, should they start listening to that voice? Should they start doubting that what God says about them, that what I’ve told them, isn’t true? Or maybe there’s people in this world that never got told that they are special and beautiful and worthy and loved? Should they wander the earth seeking man’s approval, searching for affirmation and love from any and every source around them that will never satisfy? Never being fully validated, or appreciated because they believe the voice of the world rather than the voice of God? There’s something I’ve lived through my life, and thankfully it was when I was younger, that makes life come together so beautifully. It’s when you know only Jesus fills the void in the heart. And when that void is fully filled with the perfect piece, then everything else around you falls into place. (Maybe not the way humans like to see it.) It might not always look good, it might not always be easy, it might never make sense, but nothing is going to replace or try to squeeze in next to what’s already full. And when Jesus is in that place, then man’s approval ceases to exist. No ‘man’ can tell me I’m not good enough, I’m not loved by God, my life is worthless or anything else for that matter! Only Jesus’ approval matters! And in that spot, we relieve anyone of any expectation to give us only what God can give!
I stopped using certain social media when it became not personal but another news reel. In times like now, like never before, where everyone has a platform I feel like politics and news and opinions have become so prevalent and people become their own strong governing voice. Everybody, here’s my political view and you all should do the same. Here’s what I think about the virus. Here’s what we should do about schooling. And I just wanna post a picture of my coffee again, or the cute faces of my children… Thank God I don’t hold a position in life where what I say goes. What a horrible world that would be if I did- I’m by far not qualified in any one area to do so! Even my own babies scream no at me and tell me what to do sometimes. argh. Can be aggravating. But what a sweet place to be. A mother, a wife, faithful to what I have right next to me. Faithful to God. And hopefully, faithful to anything he calls me to. I love this passage from the bible that I read this week. Colossians 3:12-17 …And be thankful, with thankfulness, giving thanks… I am so thankful myself. Oh, how God has loved me!
Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.